It’s been almost three months since my last blog post. THREE FREAKING MONTHS!! I can’t believe I’m finally saying this but the truth is…I almost quit blogging.
Throwback to the end of April/ beginning of May. Time was really not on my side as I got caught up in a shit-ton of uni work and end of the year assessments so blogging couldn’t fit in my schedule anymore. I told myself I’ll get through with the work that I had to do and then I can spend all day every day taking pictures, writing, socialising and doing all the bloggy stuff. I was really excited to get back into the swing of things especially since around that time I managed to move my domain from .uk to .com, which for me kinda meant like a new beginning and that I was on to bigger and better things when it comes to my blog.
However, I think I was using my lack of time simply as an excuse. After I finished my second year of uni and all my stress and worries have floated away I still couldn’t bring myself to sit down in front of my laptop and write. I had new ideas, I had pictures at the ready, I had drafts but somehow nothing seemed worth of being published. Although blogging was something that made me extremely happy, for some reason I became really unsatisfied with my content and trying to post at least once a week felt like a chore, kinda like when your mum forces you to take the bins out. At the same time I felt unmotivated to make changes to my content not only on my blog but also on social media so I decided to put off posting again and think things through. Do I keep doing this? Do I quit blogging?
Not gonna lie I was veeeery close to quitting. Blogging is not as easy as everyone thinks. You don’t just type some words and hit the publish button and maybe because of that I thought I couldn’t keep up with all the hard work anymore especially when the standards are getting higher and higher. Sometimes with blogging it feels like if you don’t have good writing, mind-blowing ideas and your pictures are not in some 4K ultra HD quality you won’t make it too far.
I started writing on this blog as a hobby, because I am passionate about writing and I enjoy sharing my love for beauty and fashion as well. And as much as I didn’t care about the numbers I was excited to see my blog growing and see people being genuinely interested in this little space of mine that I have on the Internet. Trying to keep it up and not disappoint anyone felt like a struggle though.
I also found myself falling out of love with social media and I literally became a ghost on all platforms. Besides being unmotivated and seeing no point in posting anything if I’m 80% convinced that I want to quit blogging, I’ve also been put off by algorithms, following to unfollow games, the whole buying followers drama and the pettiness and negativity that came with it. Honestly, the whole situation changed my perspective on so many people in the blogosphere and it made me realise just how competitive everyone is.
Fast forward to today, I am writing this post because surprise, surprise, I’m not going to give up on blogging. During the last few weeks I’ve started getting my motivation and inspiration back and I’ve sort of rekindled my love for everything that blogging implies. From writing to taking pictures and editing, I feel like I’m ready to do that again. And regarding algorithms, numbers and negativity online, it would be a shame if I would let that outweigh my passion for blogging and the enthusiasm that I get whenever I talk about things that I’m interested in even if it’s a bloody foundation or mascara.
Although my blog has been up for over a year, I feel like I’m starting from scratch all over again. But this time I am determined to put in some work, not come up with stupid excuses for not posting, plan my content wisely, interact and connect with other bloggers and of course give them my full support. I’m happy to say that after three months of being MIA I feel prepared and confident to create content again that hopefully it’s gonna be worth your read and that is going to make me proud.
I hope this post makes sense and explains my absence online. I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments below. Have you ever felt like quitting blogging?
P.S I revamped my theme so my blog looks a little bit different now and I’m really loving it. I also got my hair cut and I’m really loving that as well AND last but not least, I got a new camera!! I am now a proud owner of an Olympus Pen EP-L 8. I have no clue how to use it properly just yet but hopefully we’ll see an improvement in my photography at some point. I’m really looking forward to start blogging again so expect new posts from me very, very soon!!